being jobless made me think a lot lately. what is it that i really want to do with my life and which direction to take?
the past years of my life were just focused on how i can earn money and support my mom. that's it. i did not come from a rich family so i need to work hard to earn a living. i once dreamt of becoming a nurse when i was really young. but when i discovered that i have an interest in the arts, i thought of taking up fine arts in college. but was later on discouraged by my parents because they wanted something stable for me in the future. so i ended up taking development studies in college in my dream university. i tried to shift to civil engineering on my 2nd year but did not make it. i also tried to shift to geology during my 3rd year but still to no avail. so, i got stuck with the course and eventually finished it in 4 years.
after college, i went straight to work in a local telephone company here in our town. worked there for 3 months and left because of issues with the boss. bummed for 7 months. during that time it was still okay to be jobless because we still have my dad financially supporting us. i was called again by the local telephone company to work for them but in a different branch so i obliged. i worked there for almost 3 years under contract and eventually got axed because the new boss did not like me. that is how my call center career started. i badly need a job because my dad refused to give any financial support after a few months of leaving the house.
i worked as a telemarketer for 4 months i think. then i transferred to a new company because selling is not my thing. worked there for 2 years. i left because i got very sickly because of the schedule. jumped to one company to another. it is either because it went bankrupt or i had issues again with the bosses or the work itself. until, one day, i got out of the call center side of the company. it was so liberating in a way that i have normal working hours and rest days which i was not able to experience for 7 long years. i stayed there for 2 years. as usual i had issues with the boss again and an opportunity came so i grabbed it. which eventually led to my unemployment. one thing that i realized after working for a lot of companies, i also earned a lot of friends who i treasure up until now. we may not see each other frequently but i know that i will always have a friend in them.
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e bakit ko ba sinusulat ang lahat ng to? pinapraktis ko lang ang ingles ko. kinakalawang na e. pero seryoso... sa totoo lang, hindi ko rin alam. ang alam ko lang sa lahat ng desisyong ginawa ko sa buhay ko ni minsan hindi ako nagsisi. alam kong marami akong palpak na desisyon na ginawa, pero sabi nga nung dating team leader ko, it is better to make a wrong decision now than to make no decision at all. natatandaan ko rin nung nag-lateral transfer ako sa marketing na kinakatakutan ung kanong boss, may nagsabi sa akin na ang tapang ko raw. sabi ko, sooner or later kailangan ko ring harapin ung kinakatakutan ko, mas gusto ko lang na ngayon na kesa sa hinaharap pa. maraming taon din kse akong natakot at laging ung safe lang ang pinipili. nakakapagod na rin kse.
hindi naman siguro masamang mangarap at maghangad ng mas magandang buhay para sa nanay ko. yun lang naman ang gusto ko. pero napasama pa ata ung paghahangad ko na yun. imbes na magkaroon ng mas marami e mas lalo pang nawalan. ang dalangin ko na lang e sana magkatrabaho na ako sa mga susunod na araw. ung trabahong pang-matagalan na at di ko na kailangang umalis at maghanap ng iba kse nauubusan na ako ng oras.
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yup. i am still lost and no one has come to find me. poor me.
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random thoughts. please excuse my grammar.
the past years of my life were just focused on how i can earn money and support my mom. that's it. i did not come from a rich family so i need to work hard to earn a living. i once dreamt of becoming a nurse when i was really young. but when i discovered that i have an interest in the arts, i thought of taking up fine arts in college. but was later on discouraged by my parents because they wanted something stable for me in the future. so i ended up taking development studies in college in my dream university. i tried to shift to civil engineering on my 2nd year but did not make it. i also tried to shift to geology during my 3rd year but still to no avail. so, i got stuck with the course and eventually finished it in 4 years.
after college, i went straight to work in a local telephone company here in our town. worked there for 3 months and left because of issues with the boss. bummed for 7 months. during that time it was still okay to be jobless because we still have my dad financially supporting us. i was called again by the local telephone company to work for them but in a different branch so i obliged. i worked there for almost 3 years under contract and eventually got axed because the new boss did not like me. that is how my call center career started. i badly need a job because my dad refused to give any financial support after a few months of leaving the house.
i worked as a telemarketer for 4 months i think. then i transferred to a new company because selling is not my thing. worked there for 2 years. i left because i got very sickly because of the schedule. jumped to one company to another. it is either because it went bankrupt or i had issues again with the bosses or the work itself. until, one day, i got out of the call center side of the company. it was so liberating in a way that i have normal working hours and rest days which i was not able to experience for 7 long years. i stayed there for 2 years. as usual i had issues with the boss again and an opportunity came so i grabbed it. which eventually led to my unemployment. one thing that i realized after working for a lot of companies, i also earned a lot of friends who i treasure up until now. we may not see each other frequently but i know that i will always have a friend in them.
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e bakit ko ba sinusulat ang lahat ng to? pinapraktis ko lang ang ingles ko. kinakalawang na e. pero seryoso... sa totoo lang, hindi ko rin alam. ang alam ko lang sa lahat ng desisyong ginawa ko sa buhay ko ni minsan hindi ako nagsisi. alam kong marami akong palpak na desisyon na ginawa, pero sabi nga nung dating team leader ko, it is better to make a wrong decision now than to make no decision at all. natatandaan ko rin nung nag-lateral transfer ako sa marketing na kinakatakutan ung kanong boss, may nagsabi sa akin na ang tapang ko raw. sabi ko, sooner or later kailangan ko ring harapin ung kinakatakutan ko, mas gusto ko lang na ngayon na kesa sa hinaharap pa. maraming taon din kse akong natakot at laging ung safe lang ang pinipili. nakakapagod na rin kse.
hindi naman siguro masamang mangarap at maghangad ng mas magandang buhay para sa nanay ko. yun lang naman ang gusto ko. pero napasama pa ata ung paghahangad ko na yun. imbes na magkaroon ng mas marami e mas lalo pang nawalan. ang dalangin ko na lang e sana magkatrabaho na ako sa mga susunod na araw. ung trabahong pang-matagalan na at di ko na kailangang umalis at maghanap ng iba kse nauubusan na ako ng oras.
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yup. i am still lost and no one has come to find me. poor me.
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random thoughts. please excuse my grammar.
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