Monday, April 28, 2008

i had been job hunting for two consecutive days and up until now, i am still jobless. karma... i think. hehehe...

last thursday, i decided to apply for an email support position in transcom asia in pasig city just beside tiendesitas. the application process went well... i guess. however, i had to spend about 8 hours to finish the process. as expected, there were a lot of applicants hoping to get a job. sad to say, there are a lot of people still jobless and hoping they would be shortlisted for the position. that includes me of course. hehehe...

i ended up going home left hanging because i do not know if i passed or not. sandra, the hr personnel who interviewed me and assisted me for my final test, told me that i may go home after i'm done with the exam. during the interview, she told me that if i pass the email exam which was the last test i did, they will just call me because they still don't have any training schedule for their email account. tough luck.

good thing, i saw an ex-officemate who was applying there, too. we had the chance to talk and he gave me prospective companies where i can apply. the next day, i went to those addresses. to my dismay, they do not process applications immediately and was only asked to leave my resume. haay. what a waste of time, money and effort. but it was fine, i ended up seeing abba because she needed help fixing the soundcard of her laptop. it was also a good opportunity to see each other and catch up.

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before i left abba's cafe last friday, she asked me to check for the price of tarpaulin printing here in our town. i dropped by a printing shop near the national road and to my surprise i saw my brother. he had not contacted us, my mom and me, for almost a year now. he got himself into some trouble that we don't exactly know the details and went hiding in the provinces where our relatives were.

yeah, he is the total opposite of me. he used to be a seminarian and after two or three years, he went out and decided to get married. he is a very adventurous person. he can do whatever he wants and go to places he wanted to go. he is not afraid to mess up and does not care whoever gets affected. he has his own ways. if he wants out, he's out. no thinking twice. just like when he finally decided to get out of his own marriage after two or three years i think. even if he has a two year old daughter who will be left in between. he decided to leave my mom at the height of our family problem and does not want to do anything with us while i decided to stay with her. though, there are few things that we agree upon like our interest in visual arts. i'm afraid that is the only one.

so much about that, so i talked with my brother, asked him a few questions. i was a bit pissed on how he reacted and answered my questions. one liner. not his normal self because he is a very talkative person well... for a guy.

i just told him that there was a package for him at home and that it includes a shirt. at first he was not interested with it and since there was nothing else to say, i bid him goodbye. when i reached home, i received a text message from him asking for the shirt. he asked me to bring the shirt out and he will pick it up. and so he did, he didn't even exerted any effort to see my mom. not even a peek. haayy... i just felt bad how he treated my mom. oh well... what can i do?! he would never listen to me. i tried to talk to him about things but he got angry and would not want to talk with me anymore. haayy...

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my mom and i had been clearing our house with our old stuff. i had posted here about the old books that we sorted and other piles of paper that i used during highschool. last tuesday, i'd decided to clear my college stuff. yup, tons and tons of photocopied books and notes from my other classmates. i was wondering how much money did i spend for a lot of photocopied paper. of course, my mom and i are hoping that we can sell all of them. while going over my college things, i found a few pieces of paper that had to be spared from being sold. there was this one article that i started writing in 1997 or 1998 but was only finished in 2003. it was about my friend and my story. i must admit it was a mushy article. when i started writing it, i felt that our friendship was drifting apart. basta... it is mushy however, i'd decided to end it optimistically in 2003 because the issue had passed and i already had a deep understanding of how friendship should be. so there... i just find it funny how i used to write a few years back. the sentences were so flowery when i can just write it plain and simple, direct to the point. maybe blogging and reading different novels helped me a lot in developing my writing skill. or maybe it is maturity. however, i still cannot say that i am a good writer. all i am saying is that i had improved. that's it. btw, i will try to post the article soon. i just had to revise it. hehehe...

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Wednesday, April 16, 2008

i miss...

it had been weeks since i last posted. i haven't been writing, too. maybe because there is nothing to write about. i have a boring life to begin with so what do you expect? boring posts i guess. :)
i'd like to think that i had finally recovered from my depression. it lasted for more than a month i think. though, i had a short divertion when i trained in stellar. to be honest, as i am writing this, i only have four pesos in my coin purse and 3000 korean won in my wallet if you can call those money. :) i have never been this broke all my life but it feels funny that i feel okay. though, of course, at the back of my head, i am hoping i would get a job soon... really soon.

last friday, i finally had the courage to submit my application to the picture company. they have a job opening for creative portrait photographer if i remember the position correctly. the requirements pretty much fit someone like me who is an enthusiast and has a lot of learning to do. so there, i sent out my application thru jobstreet. however, up until now i have not heard from them. so i am planning to apply for a call center post again probably tuesday. haay... i was badly hoping that i would not go back. however, i think this is the only opportunity available and unfortunately, with no choice left, i had to take it.

it's been three months of unemployment and my mom is not liking it anymore. whenever we have small talks, the conversation will end up in a not so nice way boiling down to me not having a job and that i am complacent about it. so most of the time i tend to avoid these small talks. but hey, what can i do? we share the same small space and i cannot avoid her all day. haayy...

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i miss...
working
facing a pc for long hours
the unlimited internet surfing
being in an airconditioned room
abba and yoshie
baked penne, chicken dijon, blueberry cheesecake and peppermint iced tea from crib
starbucks
ayala avenue and its buildings
long fx rides
elevator rides

i miss a lot of things. i cannot even blog real time because i am deprived of a broadband connection. haay... i am such a loser. this is how financially challenged i am. i don't even know until when i will have prepaid load for my phone. this is too much and i have to do something about it. wish me luck.

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Friday, April 04, 2008

something to smile about

yesterday, my mom and i decided to clean up and check the boxes of our old school books if we can sell them. i found some old photos with my classmates. you won't believe how skinny i was. here are some of the photos:

funny because it brought back a lot of memories. hehehe...

this picture made me really smile because i can still remember how my friend teased me with this guy classmate. we were often seen together because we were working on some art project for the entire class and we were the leaders. you know. art stuff that was our expertise. hehehe...

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