its 2:13am february 16, 2008 and i still can't sleep. i just got home from my final interview in jp morgan. the supposedly 9pm scheduled interview was conducted at 11pm. sweet isn't it?! and the best thing about this is the interview itself lasted for only 15 minutes. isn't that great?! oh, there's one more great thing about it. they said that they will further evaluate the results of the interview and that they will keep in touch. great. it's a better and paraphrased version of the usual line when you didn't meet their expectations, we will just call you. oh well, move on. next company please.
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hindi ko maipaliwanag ang mga nangyayari sa akin nitong mga nakaraang araw. natatandaan ko na dati ay mabilis akong matanggap sa mga inaaplayan ko pero bakit parang hindi na ata pareho ng dati ang mga nangyayari ngayon. dahil ba wala sa loob ko ang paghahanap ng trabaho? at napipilitan lang ako? dahil ba namimili na ako ng trabahong gusto kong pasukan? at gusto ko na ng ibang trabaho bukod sa call center? pero ano naman ang papasukin kong trabaho kung halos 4 na taon na ako sa ganitong klase ng trabaho? hindi ko rin alam ang sagot. sana lang alam ko.
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i felt like crying again. i am just holding back my tears. i dunno if it was because of frustration or out of anger. i am beginning to doubt my capabilities as an individual. or am i just self pitying (if there is such a word). i can't stay this way for a long time. i'm back in my previous state of staring to nothingness. i just can't help but think. i am confused. lost. help. please.
februarysixteentwothousandeight
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i got the chance to see yoshie and ron, yesterday. it's nice seeing them again. as usual, neverending ang aming kwentuhan at tawanan. the best part is yung panlilibre ni ron at syempre, yung pasalubong ni yosh. its not that much pero its the thought and effort that counts. hehehe... nakuha ko na rin pala yung speakers ko from them. its been years finally nakuha ko na. hehehe... thanks a bunch guys! :) i had a very nice day kahapon na 3am na gising pa rin ako dahil sa taas ng energy ko. hahaha...
pagdating na pagdating ko pa lang, in-assemble ko na agad yung speakers. d naman ako nahirapan to figure it out. mahilig kse ako magkutingting ng kung anu-ano. hehehe... instead of installing it in my pc, i've decided to put it beside our tv and use it as an iPod speaker. kaya ayun, non-stop at long playing ang mga kanta dito ngayon. hehehe...
i think i had overcome my depression the past day. i just hope everything's going to be ok. tomorrow, i am going to apply for another job. i hope this one is it. the one in stored for me. God speed. :)
februaryeighteentwothousandeight
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yesterday, yoshie and i went to apply for an ip relay post in stellar. luckily, we got the job. we are going to start training on monday. my mom's hesitant about the job because during training we are going to receive training allowance only. i hope everything will turn out well. i badly need this job. God speed.
februarytwentytwothousandeight
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hindi ko maipaliwanag ang mga nangyayari sa akin nitong mga nakaraang araw. natatandaan ko na dati ay mabilis akong matanggap sa mga inaaplayan ko pero bakit parang hindi na ata pareho ng dati ang mga nangyayari ngayon. dahil ba wala sa loob ko ang paghahanap ng trabaho? at napipilitan lang ako? dahil ba namimili na ako ng trabahong gusto kong pasukan? at gusto ko na ng ibang trabaho bukod sa call center? pero ano naman ang papasukin kong trabaho kung halos 4 na taon na ako sa ganitong klase ng trabaho? hindi ko rin alam ang sagot. sana lang alam ko.
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i felt like crying again. i am just holding back my tears. i dunno if it was because of frustration or out of anger. i am beginning to doubt my capabilities as an individual. or am i just self pitying (if there is such a word). i can't stay this way for a long time. i'm back in my previous state of staring to nothingness. i just can't help but think. i am confused. lost. help. please.
februarysixteentwothousandeight
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i got the chance to see yoshie and ron, yesterday. it's nice seeing them again. as usual, neverending ang aming kwentuhan at tawanan. the best part is yung panlilibre ni ron at syempre, yung pasalubong ni yosh. its not that much pero its the thought and effort that counts. hehehe... nakuha ko na rin pala yung speakers ko from them. its been years finally nakuha ko na. hehehe... thanks a bunch guys! :) i had a very nice day kahapon na 3am na gising pa rin ako dahil sa taas ng energy ko. hahaha...
pagdating na pagdating ko pa lang, in-assemble ko na agad yung speakers. d naman ako nahirapan to figure it out. mahilig kse ako magkutingting ng kung anu-ano. hehehe... instead of installing it in my pc, i've decided to put it beside our tv and use it as an iPod speaker. kaya ayun, non-stop at long playing ang mga kanta dito ngayon. hehehe...
i think i had overcome my depression the past day. i just hope everything's going to be ok. tomorrow, i am going to apply for another job. i hope this one is it. the one in stored for me. God speed. :)
februaryeighteentwothousandeight
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yesterday, yoshie and i went to apply for an ip relay post in stellar. luckily, we got the job. we are going to start training on monday. my mom's hesitant about the job because during training we are going to receive training allowance only. i hope everything will turn out well. i badly need this job. God speed.
februarytwentytwothousandeight
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