last day

kahapon, sinabihan kami na pwede na kaming di pumasok til feb 15. the company's going to declare bankcruptcy on the said date and we are closing. ang konsuwelo na lang namin e, may sweldo pa kami til feb 15. di pa kasama ung separation pay.

nakakalungkot kasi matagal din akong nagtrabaho dun sa kumpanyang un. malungkot... kse ung mga taong naging malapit sa'yo hindi mo na makikita, ka-text na lang... kse panibagong pakikisama na naman sa bago mong pagtatrabahuhan... kse wala nang petiks mode... kse wala nang libreng unlimited internet browsing at video streaming... kse wala nang libreng online games...

i'm sure maninibago ako ng todo. lalo na sa trabaho. masyado na kseng naging second nature sa aking ung trabaho ko. kahit na sabihin nilang boring para sa aking eto pa rin ang pinamasaya, pinakamadaling naging trabaho ko. sobrang convenient pa ng schedule. 12 hours per day, 3 times a week. bongga di ba?! kahit hindi masyadong bongga ang sweldo ko dito e ok pa rin naman kse di patayan ang trabaho. mababait pati ung mga supervisors namin though, ung iba e ok lang. :D pero ganun talaga ang buhay e kailangang magmove on.

too bad, some good things never last. i will surely miss the people i have worked with, especially the friends i made.

good luck sa job hunting sa ating lahat. :)

weirdo

i forgot to thank all of my friends who remembered and exerted quite an effort to greet me on my birthday. thanks for reminding me that another year has been added to my life span. hehehe...

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previously, i blogged about the weird emotions i am going through. due to unknown reason, i felt sad on the day of my birthday. and i am afraid that this it has no intention of leaving me sooner. since the year started, i know something is wrong with me. i feel so down on new year's eve. i thought it was just because i caught colds. however, the sad feeling still remains and unfortunately continuing. lately, a sudden feeling of sadness envelopes me whenever my brain is not occupied with something. i am alarmed by the situation because i never felt this way before. that is, feeling sad with no particular reason. isn't it weird?! or crazy perhaps?! however, i tried thinking of any reasons i might be feeling this way, i just can't find the answers.

last thursday night, i had a dream. all i can remember was i was crying. the reason, i don't remember. when i woke up, i found tears in my eyes. i actually cried while i was asleep.

this makes me think, ganito ba talaga pag tumatanda na? samut-saring emosyon ang nararamdaman mo?! hay.


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kahit ganito ang buhay at medyo nakakaloka e, may bago na naman akong kinalolokohan. as usual korean nobela na naman. hindi ko alam kung ano meron ang mga drama series na ito at na-aadik ako. siguro dahil na rin sa kakaiba nilang mga kuwento o dahil nagsawa na rin ako sa paikot-ikot na kwento mga teleserye sa lokal TV. dahil na rin siguro madalas e, nakakarelate ako sa mga karakter ng istorya nila.

first few episodes pa lng ng coffee prince ang napalabas sa gma7 pero natapos ko na syang panoorin sa internet. medyo mahirap nga lang manood na nagbabasa ng english subtitles na madalas e kulang ung translation kaya kahit natapos ko nang panoorin e sinusubaybayan ko pa rin sa lokal TV. highly recommended ko ang coffee prince hindi dahil paborito ko si eun hye na bida rin sa princess hours. the storyline is not the typical ones you have watched. i'm sure you kids will like it too. :)

not so happy birthday

i celebrated my 29th birthday last january 6. i was supposed to be happy, right?! because it was my birthday. it just felt weird because i felt otherwise. i dunno why. that was the first time i felt odd during my birthday. haay. ganun ata talaga pag tumatanda na. tsktsktsk. :)

happy new year

funny

this is funny. i never knew about this. matagal na pala toh. hehehe...

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haay buhay

nalagasan na naman kme ng 2 tao pagkatapos magtanggal ng marami nung december 10. nakakalungkot kse ung isang natanggal ay ang una kong naging kaibigan dito sa opisina. wala na ang sparing partner ko kaya malungkot na. wala na ang kasama ko sa kalokohan at sa mga side trips sa gabi bago umuwi. lalo na sa pagkain. malabo na ulit kme magkita nun kse sa bundok ako nakatira. haay. sana naman may makita akong mas maayos na trabaho ung permanente at pangmatagalan para mapagawa ko na ung bahay na gusto namin. haay.

goodbye

last week, we said goodbye to a dear colleague who is now with the good Lord. last monday, we said goodbye to some colleagues who had been retrenched. sad. we have to prepare ourselves for the unexpected.

canvas

my canvases are arriving soon. makakapagpinta na ako. after 4 long years, ngayon lang ulit ako magpipinta. excited na ako. :) buti na lang, i have a good friend who is painting too and she encouraged me to paint again. s'ya rin nag-volunteer na ipagpapagawa nya ako ng canvas. thanks abba. :) basta, i am looking forward to the day that i will pick up the brush again. ang drama ko. hahaha!

paalam kaibigan

salamat sa lahat ng ngiti na dulot mo
bagamat sandali lang ang ating pinagsamahan
maligaya ako dahil kahit papaano tayo'y nagkakilala
salamat sa masasayang sandali na magpapangiti pa rin sa akin tuwina
kahit na sa pagkakataong ito'y may halo nang lungkot ang mga 'yon
subalit hindi ako dapat mabahala dahil nasa mabuti ka nang mga kamay
doon ay wala nang sakit, hirap at pighati kang mararanasan

paalam, baunin mo ang aking panalangin
alam kong isang araw magkikita tayong muli
doon sa lugar na puno ng walang hanggang ligaya
salamat sa mga alaala
hanggang sa muli, kaibigan.

some pics

here are some pics from allan's digicam during our town fiesta last november 23. this is kinda late for posting. i'm a bit lazy to write something so photo blogging for now. :)

i bought a new rubber shoes yesterday. after 2 years, i finally have an alternate to my ever reliable merrell shoes. this is the pair of shoes i bought.

i remember posting here last may a picture of the next merrell that i will buy. however, i did not find one here in the philippines. too bad.

loyalty to this brand? i guess so. though it is a bit pricy, it's one hell of a tough shoe. i wear my merrell almost everyday whenever i go out and it's still in good condition to think it's been 2 years old. :)

jeans

yesterday, i got so frustrated looking for jeans. if only i don't need to buy a new pair, i won't waste time looking for one. i just hate the fact how jeans often change. i mean their size and style. before, when i was still using midwaist jeans, there were a lot of low rise jeans. now, that i am looking for low rise jeans, i just can't find what i am looking for. weird, isn't it?! their low rise jeans does not look like one anymore. the sales people will assure you that they are low rise but when you try to fit it, it's not. haaay... can someone help me get a pair of jeans??!!!

ghost

a ghost from my past just haunted me. after three or four years of absence, he made himself felt yesterday. good thing he is a ghost and i did not get any glimpse of him or my bright sun shiny day will turn to gray.

it was in the midst of our town fiesta's parade/procession. in the midst of everyone's merry making. the jolliest event of the day. the main event to everyone's anticipation. i didn't know he was there nor i even care. the day he chose his other woman and illegitimate child over us and insensitively passed unto my shoulders his responsibilities, for me, he already ceased to exist. i know i am bad but i have all the reasons to feel this way. however, i still chose to be numb to that emotion.

and to you, i just a small favor to ask. since you already left your responsibilities, just don't show up. all the bad memories can't help but come back. i guess this will be the best for all of us.

fiesta

aligaga na naman ang mga tao sa bayan namin. malapit na naman kse ang fiesta. may perya na, banderitas at endramada. everyone's anticipating the day itself. masaya na naman sa angono. ito ang isa sa pinakamasayang pagdiriwang taon-taon kaya naman i can't afford to miss it. every year i make sure that i am home to witness this event. personally, i look forward to the other activities before the feast day. the higantes festival, the art exhibit and on the spot painting contests, and the tiangge. at syempre ang pinakaaabangang fluvial procession. sayang nga lang, hindi ako kukuha ng pictures this year. i got so frustrated last year with my point and shoot because its battery died out before the procession was done. i was not even done taking pics. i told myself that i will have a new camera by this time of the year. however, due to financial constraints it did not materialize. poor me. literally. a financially challenged individual. tsktsktsk. kala ko pa naman vertically challenged lang ako. hehehe...

meet the spartans

spoof of 300.

green tea

i love this. try it out too. :)

scoliosis

my mom has been complaining about her back pains for the past months. according to her, sometimes it hurts sometimes it don't. she also noticed that she has uneven collar bones. i think she noticed that years ago, when her left bicep muscles started to ache to the extent that she cannot lift her arm vertically.

it just dawned on me last night that she might have scoliosis because i asked her if her shoulders have even levels. she told me that they are not. her most recent chest xray does not show much if she does have scolio but it seems that she has kse medyo nakabaluktot ung sa bandang taas ng spine nya. of course, i cannot confirm this unless we see a doctor which she hates a lot. haay... another problem in the making.

loans

our town fiesta is fast approaching. since this month started, i noticed our town's people are busy setting up the bamboo poles lined up at our streets or those that we call endramadas. marking the preparations for the said annual event.

this is one thing i always loved about my hometown. it has a very colorful customs and tradition that makes everyone look forward to and the festive atmosphere whenever this time of the year comes. i always make sure i don't miss it. this year though makes me a little frustrated because i told myself that i will have my d40 this month of the year. however, due to financial difficulties, this did not materialize. so i decided that i will just watch the parade and see if i can stop myself from taking photos. hehehe...

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i tried getting a loan from two banks but to no avail. lastly, i tried getting a loan from sss and to my surprise, i was listed under an unknown employer, premier wine and spirits inc. the heck?! i don't even know what company is that! so in effect, i cannot get a loan unless this gets taken cared of. fine. come to think of it, i am 3 contributions short to get a two month loan which is a lot better. all i have to do is wait till our company remits our contribution for december and i am good to go. it's not that bad after all. hehehe...

wehehehe

still no blog post for this month. sorry folks, too lazy to post. will blog very soon. :)