last day

it's the last day of my work for my part time job today. i was informed that the work will resume next year due to some reasons regarding the adjustment of time in russia. my boss told me that she can no longer accommodate the work because it will mean that she will sleep at 4 or 5am manila time.

it's just sad that my stint here is short lived. i just need to look for a new part time job. sayang yung 2 months na mababakante ako. hehehe...

night out

i had a chance to have dinner with my good friend last night. out of the blue, she texted me and asked me if we can meet up because it was her off and she was so bored. i agreed because i have not seen her for a long time and it's my off the next day so it was fine. the truth is i am planning to have coffee after my shift on that same day.

while eating, we talked about our lives and caught up with the things that had happened to each other.

our conversation just made me realize that she is going through pretty much the same things that i do. like problems with her family and the society's pressure of getting married because as they say, "we are of age to tie the knot." it's just funny because we both have almost the same point of views on both issues and we are both problematic about our brothers. hehehe... well, i guess that is the reason we are friends. good friends that is.

oh well, i think God won't give us all these problems if we cannot handle them. i wish her well. :)

gratitude

i am extremely touched by the generosity of a good friend who is located in canada. she bought me a harry potter book 7 as a birthday present. my birthday is still 3 months away and yet she already got a present for me. of course, she will go through all the trouble of shipping it here in the philippines. isn't that so sweet?! another thing is she volunteered and is willing to lend me some bucks for my camera funds. i am so hesitant about this idea because i know living in a foreign country is difficult and the camera i am longing to buy can still wait. i think. hehehe...

i just don't have enough words for you my dear friend... but i hope you know how grateful i am for this gesture. thanks a bunch.

i guess another angel has been sent on my way again. :)

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it's confirmed. yoshie is leaving on the 31st. sad... geez... have a safe trip to papua new guinea dear! keep in touch.

solo flight

rio's on vacation leave...
kenn's on sick leave...
12 hours shift...
solo flight...
left alone on a sunday...
to receive calls...
not just calls... but...
a lot of calls...
good luck.

thanks to bruno...
for providing me company...
and taking calls as well...

isn't he a cutie?! :D

barkada trip

i just love these toons. hehehe...

roller coaster ride

politics here in the philippines just made a sudden turn. just last thursday, ex-president joseph estrada was given an absolute executive clemency. we don't know what was the motive of the current administration by doing this but their critics are saying that they just want to divert the attention of the public from the ZTE broadband deal controversy. whatever the reason of PGMA for granted erap's pardon, i just hope that it will lead to a national healing both social and political. i just hope this is for the greater good.

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just an update, the death toll in the glorietta 2 explosion has reached 11 already. up until now, the cause of the explosion is still unknown. tsk tsk tsk.

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finished a few experimental art works last thursday and during the first week of this month. these come in small sizes only and are supposedly studies for the paintings i will submit for the november art fair in salcedo park this year. unfortunately, we were not given any slot. better luck next year. hehehe...

i am not so sure if the art pieces i made are good so i am posting them for you to judge. i hope you like them.:) i am not an abstractionist so please bear with me. honestly, i am kinda liking making abstract paintings and i hope i can do more on canvass. hehehe... btw, these are watercolors on board. this is the only available materials at home. yeah, i have oil colors but am still waiting for the canvas to come. hehehe...

tragedy

9 lives lost... wounded victims still counting... unknown cause of explosion... a freak accident or an act of terrorism... still no confirmation... but one thing is clear... there are 9 wasted lives and 9 mourning families left. it is just sad how cheap lives can be. my deep condolence to the families affected.

kuya

kuya's back and he has a new set of celebrity housemates. i can't wait to watch this. i'm sure this will be interesting. :)

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i saw hunter and holiday last saturday. i finally saw them in the flesh. they are so adorable. i can't find any words to describe them. hehehe... i can't help but smile in their presence. arghhh... i miss my niece.

help

i have not realized how ironic life can be and how each of us are interconnected until i experienced it first hand. let us just say i discovered something sensitive that might destroy a family.

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i am

bothered
confused
in a dilemma

will someone help me.

bad luck

i can't help but think na hinahabol ako ng malas. it all started when i picked the worst work schedule one can get. followed by a declined personal loan from HSBC. then, the organizer of the art in the park did not give us any slot because they prefer a more organized group than us. the worst thing is, i overused my credit card to buy oil paints for that art fair and i don't have enough funds to pay it on the 29th. how worst can it get? when will all this stop?

nga pala, sorry sa mga nadamay sa kamalasan ko.

annoyed

i am starting to get pissed again. i just found out that there are two people occupying one very convenient schedule without weekends. f*ck. i hate the feeling that i am taken for granted when everyone else gets something better. i hate it when all is unfair and i am so helpless that i could not do anything but give way. hay. lagi na lang bang ganito? honestly, i'm getting sick and tired.

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on the other hand, yoshie is leaving for papua new guinea this wednesday. will definitely miss her. take care sweetie. :)

days

day 1

in extreme of the following
frustrated
disappointed
displeased
furious
illogical
in denial
agitated
irate
to anyone in particular???
nah... life just sucks


day 2

a level lower in intensity
of all of the above
diversion


day 3

realization
probabilities
but still can't shake the thought off

day 4

logical
understanding


day5

fear
helplessness
acceptance


i don't have any choice... as always.

"lucky" me

napakamalas ko naman ngayong araw na to. na-late ako kanina pagpasok sa office at nag-logout ako ng mas maaga sa dapat. yep, i had to go home because i can no longer think straight. i might end up messing up a lot of things and worst with a lot of people. mas ok na rin tong ginawa ko. baka kse di ako makapagpigil. hehehe...

you might be wondering what happened. today is the dreaded day of picking our new schedules. since no one wants to work during the weekends, they decided to have draw lots to be fair. because i am so "lucky" on things like this (anything that requires luck i.e lottery draws, tickets and the like), i picked the most dreaded schedule (saturday, sunday, monday). i was just so disappointed that i could not contain it so i decided to go home early. i would like to clarify that i am not angry to anyone in particular, it's nobody's fault just mine. i just have to clear my head. in the first place, i am just human. just like anybody else... (to be continued... if i could think of anything to add. i just have to let this out.)

more movie links

more movie links here.

abba's birthday celeb

went to abba's place last wednesday to celebrate her birthday. it was a pig out day again for us. yoshie and blythe was there, too. took a few pics.

soft tacos for meryenda. yummy! hehehe...

yoshie, blythe and me (abba's taking the pic)

fried tofu for dinner

padthai for dinner (mudthai???!!! hehehe...)

me and my best buddies

the best blueberry cheesecake i've ever tasted. you can only get this from crib coffee.

blythe and me

happy birthday abba!

birthday greetings to one of my best buds. i hope all your wishes will be at hand. :)

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i will leave work early today because i need to go to the hospital. it is the time of the year that i have to undergo another breast ultrasound. yeah, since i got operated, i have to do this every 6 months and yes, i had to shell out money for this. the last time i did, i paid Php1500 because according to the attendants of our HMO, the said test was not covered. i just hope that the cost has not increased yet. :)

btw, i am not yet sure if my bosses will allow me to leave work early. wish me luck kids. :)

i just got back from my usual four days off. as always, i don't feel like going to work today. i had a blast during my off. i had my free time occupied with a part time job. it just makes the days pass by faster than usual. however, it limits me from doing extra stuff like visiting a friend in antipolo. haayy... buhay... parang life. hehehe

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yoshie's leaving on the 26th of this month. she will be back after christmas this year. it's just sad that she won't be here on the art fair in salcedo park in makati just like last year. the art in the park will be more special for me because i will be joining this year. but i know she will be very happy to go back to papua new guinea and see her parents. have a safe trip yosh, we will miss you. :)

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i am pressured. november is fast approaching. i just realized that i only have a month and a half to come up with 5 paintings for the art in the park. i still don't know what to paint. i still don't have any available materials. wish me luck. i don't want to end up withdrawing.

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abba had her advanced birthday bash last night. i was not able to come because i have work today. i hope she had a great time. last night too, our dabarkads had a dinner with chiqui. btw, chiqui resigned from work and i was not even able to see her for the last time. sad. damned cww.

prayer for today

Lord, please give me strength to accept things I cannot change. thank you.

books... books... books...

as planned, i went to national bookstore today to buy the books i posted here last week. due to some turn of events, i ended up purchasing other books. hehehe... it's just that the i was able to find the book eldest by christopher paolini which is so hard to find that is why i grabbed the opportunity to buy it. the second book i bought is good omens by terry pratchett and neil gaiman. i am a big fan of neil gaiman and it's so refreshing to know that he wrote a book with another best selling author (that is as far as i know. hehehe... ). i got so excited that i forgot about the books i was planning to buy. to be honest, i haven't read any of stephen king's book yet. i really hope that i would be able soon. hehehe... promise, i will buy everything's eventual, the expected one and macarthur soon. i'm crossing my fingers. hehehe...

bored???!!! not me... hehehe

another cool site where you can watch those movies and tv shows you missed. hehehe... interested??!!! click here.

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i will start working for my part time job tomorrow and will be working for three days only. i don't want to push my body to its limits. i may not be able to handle it if ever because i am not getting any younger. i've realized that the 6k i would be getting from this job will be of great help already. again, thank you Lord for the angels you sent me. :)

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i've been lurking in the national bookstore website today. initially, i just want to look at the content of the book which contains the 1408 short story of stephen king. and now i can't stop. especially now that i discovered that national bookstore is on sale. the book i am looking for together with a lot of books i like are on sale and i cannot help myself but to look for more books to buy. tsktsktsk... i am seeing myself rushing to the nearest bookstore before sept 16. too bad, i dont have cash. poor credit card... hehehe...

the following are the books i would like to buy:

this is the book contains the 1408 short story which is a motion picture now. i think its currently showing in cinemas.

the usual da vinci plot about jesus and mary magdalene. i am just so fascinated with the fictional stories that have been created by this plot.

i didn't know that bob ong released a new book. i haven't been to bookstores lately. but will surely grab a copy of this. i can't miss this. hehehe...

that's all for now. i will still look for more books to buy. good luck na lang sa bulsa ko. hehehe...