last thursday while i was at home and enjoying my off, i received a text message from one of my office buddies. she congratulated me for topping the TPV account. yeah, i got the no. 1 position among the TPV agents to think that i was just in the account for just 2 months. the downside is that though i am the top agent among the TPV agents, i am the least paid. yeah, life is unfair. hehehe... although that is the case, i was still elated about the good news but i would be more happier if i got a salary increase aside from the prestige that was given. the managers gave away a starbucks gift certificate and some chocolates that i received just yesterday when i came back from my long vacation.
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i got to visit a long time friend last wednesday. the truth is, it's been a year since the last time i was
able to visit her. yup, i am so busy making something out of myself. unfortunately, until now i haven't succeeded. maybe because the direction i am heading is not what was intended for me. i just dunno.
while i was spending time with her, i just realised a lot of things. one is that time has already flown so fast that i didn't even notice it and worst, i never even cared that it has already passed me by. i didn't notice that it has been years since the last time we had a good talk... that i suddenly turn quiet because i dunno what to talk about next. i've realised that she has already turned into a mother and a wife from being a bright sunshiny funny talkative teenager i used to know... that she has now a mini version of her makulit self; though, her mini-me does not resemble her looks... that we now just laugh at the old things that we used to do... we indeed had turned to matured people without me even noticing the changes because for me she will forever remain my little sister. i've realised that i missed a lot of important days in her life... i missed her wedding... her first born's baptism... and even her birthdays... i was never there... i would only show up at my convenience. but we never talked about that whenever we get to see each other. last year, i promised myself that i would make time for her as much as i could but i just dunno why i can't. i dunno. maybe i am so confident that no matter what happens we will always be friends. but things are not the same anymore... she has now her own family and no matter how i try to make time for her, her family should come first and i understand that because the same thing is true for me. i am just a little sad that i was not there on the important days of her life but i really do hope that she knows how proud i am of what she had become as a mom and wife. i just really hope we can spend more time together and do the things we were not able to do way back then.
don't get me wrong. i had fun that day because i got to see my an old friend and i really like kids. i had fun tending with her 8 month old niece and playing with her 3 year old daughter. that was a fun day indeed. i just had some realisations that are inevitable. i think that is the case when you get older. there is a tendency to analyze things or should i say everything that comes your way.
photo taken from the internet.
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i got to visit a long time friend last wednesday. the truth is, it's been a year since the last time i was
able to visit her. yup, i am so busy making something out of myself. unfortunately, until now i haven't succeeded. maybe because the direction i am heading is not what was intended for me. i just dunno.while i was spending time with her, i just realised a lot of things. one is that time has already flown so fast that i didn't even notice it and worst, i never even cared that it has already passed me by. i didn't notice that it has been years since the last time we had a good talk... that i suddenly turn quiet because i dunno what to talk about next. i've realised that she has already turned into a mother and a wife from being a bright sunshiny funny talkative teenager i used to know... that she has now a mini version of her makulit self; though, her mini-me does not resemble her looks... that we now just laugh at the old things that we used to do... we indeed had turned to matured people without me even noticing the changes because for me she will forever remain my little sister. i've realised that i missed a lot of important days in her life... i missed her wedding... her first born's baptism... and even her birthdays... i was never there... i would only show up at my convenience. but we never talked about that whenever we get to see each other. last year, i promised myself that i would make time for her as much as i could but i just dunno why i can't. i dunno. maybe i am so confident that no matter what happens we will always be friends. but things are not the same anymore... she has now her own family and no matter how i try to make time for her, her family should come first and i understand that because the same thing is true for me. i am just a little sad that i was not there on the important days of her life but i really do hope that she knows how proud i am of what she had become as a mom and wife. i just really hope we can spend more time together and do the things we were not able to do way back then.
don't get me wrong. i had fun that day because i got to see my an old friend and i really like kids. i had fun tending with her 8 month old niece and playing with her 3 year old daughter. that was a fun day indeed. i just had some realisations that are inevitable. i think that is the case when you get older. there is a tendency to analyze things or should i say everything that comes your way.
photo taken from the internet.
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